in my element

BOTTLEFEST 2006




GABBY!!! i love you!!!

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weary

i've been so tired. i don't think i'm physically tired, but my mind is slowly giving up on me. i don't want to think; i just want to take it easy. i don't want responsibilites; i want to be carefree. i don't want to have a schedule; i want to let things flow. i don't want to wake up; i want to be left in my dream world.

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jealous bouts

pictures posted.

i am jealous. very.

question is...why? i know i shouldn't be coz we've set expectations. but still, what the mind knows, sometimes the heart doesn't quite understand.

damn it!!!!

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i only feel beautiful when i'm hungry

*thanks to bestest iza for the subject line*

i only feel beautiful when i feel that my stomach is making grumbling noises and i feel like i'm going to faint from hunger.

i only feel beautiful when i know that my tummy is flat because i haven't eaten a single thing for the entire day.

i only feel beautiful when i see that my cheeks have sunk in because of too much dieting.

i only feel beautiful when my pants are too loose.

i only feel beautiful when i find myself going to the bathroom a lot to empty what my stomach holds.

and today...i'm full.

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weekend thoughts

after a week in manila, i got to thinking about the move i made to cebu. i think it was one of the best decisions i've ever made. manila life is great, the hussle and bussle of everything. but at the end of the day, there's nothing more relaxing than being home, seeing the lush hills of cebu and smelling the sea air while sipping a cup of coffee before going to sleep. now that's something manila can never give me.

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i also got to realize that being home, near the parents or the siblings, would only cause more friction than comfort. not to say that i don't miss them, i do! a lot! but i heard of news today which made me say to myself "thank God i'm not there in laguna!" i knew that if i had known of this issue while i was there, things might have gotten worse. as they say, there's always a reason for everything.

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he had asked me if things would be the same after our meeting. i said yes. and i do believe that it is. it's still the same...i still think about him; i still wonder if we can be a "we"; i still feel the thump in my heart at the thought of him...

he still makes me happy despite all that's happened.

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it's complicated

he's with me.

but you're on my mind.

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making a memory

just when i thought it'd be one of those silent fridays, you call. we talked of inconsequential things. you made me laugh.

you let me use your jacket. it smells like you.

made me feel you were with me all day. i will forever associate this smell with comfort despite distance.

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home office

as planned, and promised to myself, i got me a laptop (sony vaio) last monday. i had said that i would get one in Q4, and i did get one! they say that if you want something, you really have to verbalize it. :)

upside, i get to be connected anywhere i go.

downside, i get to be connected anywhere i go.

oh well, as my friend told me, it's what you do with your tools that make it efficient. :)

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