karmz has been texting..opening the friendship again. i hope so. it'd be nice to have him back, even as just a friend.

In a futile attempt to stop missing Aussie Boy, ex-dog BF comes to stay at my place. I thought that he would make me miss aussie boy less, but he made me miss him more!!!! HHaayyy...and Aussie boy texts me that he's in gold coast already and that, and i quote, " I had fun spending time with you. You're nice." You're nice? You're nice?!?!?! That's all he can say?!?!?!?! After all we did, all he can say is that I'm nice?! What tha?!?!?! I don't know how to take it but I can't really demand anything from him. I mean, who am I to him? I'll take everything as it is. The moment I stop missing him, he's going to re-appear. Wonder when he's coming back...and what will happen the next time he comes home...

After 6 years, he re-appears and tells me that he wants to see me. He comes into town, we go out and have fun. We spend my birthday together, he gives me a gift, he makes my birthday really happy. Who would have known that that one date would turn out as 3 weeks of dating.

It's weird, I told myself that I'm not going to fall for him but I did. Not fall in love, that's too intense. I fell in-like with him. I hated the first night that I slept at my place again, all alone, after spending the week with him. I missed him hugging him. I missed him staying with me till I fell asleep. I missed smelling his coconut hair and feeling his arms and abs. I miss his compliments. I miss him making me feel special.

But now that he's gone and I'm missing him, I feel that the moment that I start to stop missing him, he's going to re-appear and start making me feel good again. I wish that he'll just leave and make me get over him. But I know that once i find out he's in town, i'd want to see him again.