bliss

coz it's faith
it's honesty
it's life
it's everything
to say i love you's not enough
to tell you how you make me feel
there's only one word for this...

alright, ok! it's not exactly bliss with him. there are days when i want to wring his neck! moments with him that i want to whack him. conversations that make my eyebrows raise.

but he does have his good points. the way he'd make lambing , give me calls in the middle of our workday just to say hi, do unexpected sweet things...

it may not be bliss, it might not even be love just yet, but one thing's for sure

he makes me happy.

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practical magic revisited

i bought an original DVD copy of practical magic last saturday. i know i've posted this, but i'll post it again:

I have this dream of being whole. Of not going to sleep each night, wanting. But still, sometimes when the wind is warm or the crickets sing I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. I want to be seen. I don't know. Maybe I've had my happiness. I don't want to believe it but there is no man, only that moon.

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you can't finish what you started

you! YES YOU!! mr.fight-or-flight-status-quo-i -respect-who-you-are.

2 words.

FUCK OFF!!!

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i dream with noise, i wake with silence

for the past few days, i've been having disturbing dreams. one that made me cry was the one i had today...

in my dream, i was driving my new hyundai sta.fe in los banos. i passed by baker hall and i suddenly saw *him*. i stopped the car, jumped out and went running to give him a hug. i looked at him and he had this expression on his face. i saw that there were flowers on the table and that there was a girl talking to one of the instructors. *he* led me out the door and said that he now has a girlfriend in LB. i walked back to my car and looked back. i saw him crying. and that's when i started crying.

please, you know who you are, say it isn't so. please say that this dream is not true... it seems that even in my dreams, you're breaking my heart.


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