love is not so distant

"Loving you, is such an easy thing to do, no you'll never know
It's driving me crazy coz it grows and grows
And I won't let it stop no I'm not giving up
Loving you, loving you, loving you
Just a bit too much..."

the song that's playing in my head, being sung to no one in particular. charlotte york said that a person has only two great loves. and like carrie, i can't help but think that my true loves have passed. but now, after hearing myself sing that song, it makes me feel less cynical and more hopeful.

my true love is out there, somewhere...

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06111804

it's not the quantity but the quality...


a late lunch at greenbelt with forest gump and lt. dan. he's majorly allergic to shrimp but still, he was ok with the place; he just had chicken. then we had this HUGE alabama mud slide. no matter how full you get, you always have room for dessert.


we had woken up late after a tiring night bonding and just when we were going to light up the grill for some good ol' fashion bbqing, it started to rain. and like little kids, we ran out to catch the rain with our tongues.

hhhhmmmm....

i don't know which is sadder; him staying thousands of miles away or him coming to visit only to leave...

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indeed why?

i remember reading this in starbucks greenbelt. i almost cried right then and there. truly, why oh why do people have to come into our lives, only to leave us?





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officially a fag hag

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i think i've had too much of queer eye for the straight guy

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si paquita

kagabi, nanood kami ng sine ng aking kasama sa bahay na si ros. babae sa breakwater. ano naman kaya yun? mga alas diyes na nagsimula yung pelikula. french art filmfest ngayon sa greenbelt. at dahil sa kawalan ng magawa, nanood kami.

sinabihan na ako ni ros na medyo b-film sya. hindi naman ako nag-expect. art film nga eh! malamang mga artistic at experimental shots yung gagamitin dun sa pelikula. naisip ko na lang wala lang, pampalipas oras. at saka, singkwenta lang naman eh! ok na rin yan. at least naka aircon.

nagsimula na yung pelikula at, hindi ko alam kung ano ang iisipin ko habang nanonood. halo halo ang aking naramdaman; lungkot, galit, pandidiri, at higit sa lahat, awa.

mula simula, hanggang sa huli, mapagiisip ka. ang daming simbolismo na, kung hindi mo iisipin talaga, hindi mo makikita. hanggang sa aking pagtulog, iniisip ko pa rin sila, ang mga taong walang makain, mga taong nagnanakaw, mga tao sa breakwater, ang babaeng si paquita.

kung papanoorin mo sya, maaawa ka talaga kay paquita. mula sa pagka puta, nilapastangan ng bosing ng lugar nila, hanggang sa nagbagong buhay, nagka asawa, anak pero para lang saan? para lang mawala sa kanya ang mga minahal nya? para lang kunin sa kanya ang nalalabing dignidad? ngunit, sa kabila ng lahat, bumangon sya. nagsumikap para maiahon ang sarili. parang pilipinas. lahat na nangyari sa kanya; sa atin. ngunit heto pa rin tayo. patuloy nagsusumikap na pagandahin ang buhay, maiayos ang sarili, at maiunlad ang bansa.

ngunit,

sa huli,

ano na...?

para saan...?


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monday nights

i've finished reading "angels and demons" and am now in the middle of "the da vinci code" both by dan brown. it facinates me how much power grabbing happens within the catholic church. how politics runs everything. i've nothing against catholics, though i don't agree with some of the practices. and i'm not trying to be "holier than thou". i know i have my short comings when it comes to my relationship with God. but the way those two books describe the vatican, the catholic church and the catholic faith, well, it leaves much to be desired.

last night i watched "the crime of padre amaro", this mexican film. it was quite interesting and gael garcia(?) is one hot guy. again, you will see the things that happen behind the alter. you thought that "noli" was an exaggeration, think again.

you've got to wonder why they ever thought that the church and the state could be separate.

moving on....

i shared a nightcap with my ex-boyfriend last night. it was refreshing to be able to talk to him like buddies after 3 years of not talking at all! it was only during my last semester in college that we actually became friends again. then last night, as we were laughing about shrek or i think i was making fun of him or was he making fun of me (i can't remember), for a milli-second, we both remembered why it was that we got together. he had that look, a look that i hadn't seen in his eyes since the days he told me he loved me. will the fire be rekindled you're asking? not in this lifetime. but, i say this with great relish, the friendship will never be taken away.

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