This week has been something…something that I’ve been missing for the past three months of my life.

Before every shift, I’ve been hanging out with my two best buds, Jack and Aids at Greenbelt, having coffee, dinner and a movie. This is what being a single is all about, or should I say, partly about. It’s about having the time to hang with your friends, be who you are and not feel obligated to do certain things, say certain things, feel certain things. Being myself was something that I stopped doing to some extent. It’s time to be true.

I’ve been getting so many opportunities these days. Not only in the romance department, but more so with my career. I’ve realized that it’s so hard to leave your comfort zone. I know that I have so much to offer, so much to share to other people if I leave the company, but the mere thought of leaving my friends, it holds me back. But, as with everything, it is God who gives them to us. If He wants you to explore, to get into something else, then don’t think, JUMP IN! If you know that it’s really Him who wants you to do these things, then just do it!

In terms of the romance department, I’ve so many prospects, so many guys who I know I’ll have a chance with making their presence known. But, there is a big but, I’ve changed my views about dating. I don’t want to waste my time, or someone else’s time, with a relationship that’s all fun and games. I don’t want to look back and think that I’ve given a piece of heart to someone who will just chop it up and feed it to the dogs. I don’t want my wedding day to come and as me and my future husband take our vows, see that there are several other men beside me taking the vows with me, each one of those men having had a piece of my heart at some time in my past. I want it to end now. I want to be able to face my future husband with my pure intentions, lay down the cards, tell him everything I’ve been through, and still, he’d accept me for who I am.

Truly, when God closes a door, He opens up several windows.

No one would me if they knew, all the things I hide…
My words fall to the floor as tears drip through the telephone line…
Give me your hand to hold
Coz I can’t stand, to love alone
Caedmon’s Call “Love Alone”