it's wierd, just when things are turning up for me, the people around me are falling apart. just when things are falling into place for me, it's now that people are getting lost. i wonder when the time will come that everyone will be happy at the same time.

i got a new flat this month. i really have a place of my own. its so fun to fix up a house and play house. but a new house comes with responsibilities. i need to pay the bills, clean the house, and be mature enough not to make the place a gimmick place. but i love my house, and even if i'm paying a lot, i'm willing to make a sacrifice.

i also have a new job, well, not really...i've got a new position. i got promoted! woohoo!!! i'm now doing something that i love with a company that is very supportive to it's employees. and i'm getting more!! and its gonna cover my apartment bills!

all i'm lacking now is a boyfriend, and i wonder if i'll or, if God will give me one soon. i wonder if now, i'm ready for a relationship. when Karmz came into my life and he disappeared, my brother said that maybe the reason why he went away was because God knew that I was not ready for him, that i would give too much of myself and not concentrate on my job and who i want to be. but now that i'm going towards what i know is my path, i can let someone in, and that he should be the one to really take care of me. i have so much love in me and i want to give it to someone, someone who deserves me. someone i can love unconditionally. someone who, maybe, God willing, be the one i will spend the rest of my life with.