all the things that i have not said

you still get to me. no matter where i am, what i'm doing, you have a way of creeping into my thoughts at the most unexpected times. i said to myself that it's all good, nothing's wrong. we're still friends, it was nothing. but i've been fooling myself.

of course it was something. you made me feel that it was something. it could have been. it may have been. it wasn't meant to be. and that hurts.

i need some time to get used to the idea that we're back to what we used to be. not that that's a bad thing, it's actually when i think about it, better.

i try not to think about you. i concentrate on work. go out with friends. go on trips. but somehow, you find a way back to my stream of consciousness. and then i miss you.

i miss you a lot.

i miss you to the point that i cry at the thought of you.

but you don't see that. i'm the strong one. i'm the one who can handle it. i'm the one that will get past this whole thing. and maybe you're right. i know you're right. but at this point in time, i'm the one who's crumbling. i'm the who's not handling it. i'm the one wallowing in the feelings. but you don't see that. you can't see that.

you said you need time. i need time.

time to get over you.


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