when will i learn?

and we have reached our end.

maybe i was expecting too much from him. he never said that it would last. and wasn't i the one who said i didn't want a relationship? but your heart sweeps you away when you least expect it.

i hate the way that he's making me feel. if only he had the balls to formally end things between us. but then he never formally started things. gelpren is right, he's too chicken shit to own his feelings.

i can't help but compare him to the bacolod boy. no matter how gago bacolod boy was, the fact that he told me how much of a gago he was made me understand where he was coming from. still i decided to stick with him. i knew about his infidelities. he told me his feelings. he admitted his shortcomings. and i understood. despite all of it, i loved him. that made it easier to let go.

letting go is a part of life. i've let go of so many feelings that i know that i can get through this.

and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security,
after a while you learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises


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