and the tables have turned

i started dating when i was in 1st year college. and through out college, i could say that i always had a guy beside me, to hold my hand, to love me, to wipe my tears away and to cause the tears to fall. when i started working in makati, there was no constant man, but i'd always have someone to go out with. dinner, drinks, movies, concerts, whatever. had one unsuccessful relationship here in manila but that's behind me. so when i computed it, including the days in-between relationships, i've been single for a grand total of 1095 days. that's a lotta days. but i think it's not long enough.

my two bestest friends have boyfriends. i'm happy for them. it's their turn. i've had my happiness. sometimes i'm envious but it quickly passes. i still haven't lost all hope that there's that man for me. i just need patience and faith.

i was with ariel, jas, al and rey last night being one of the boys when ariel suddenly asked me why i didn't have a boyfriend. i was surprised by my own answer. i told him, i'm holding out for THE ONE. am i? i sure would like to think so.

being single ain't that bad. you have time to do what YOU want without thinking what your partner would think. the money that you earn is yours. you don't have to remember monthesaries or birthdays and you're not obligated to buy gifts for those occasions. you can go out with guy friends without anyone getting angry. you basically have time to be the real you. because as much as i don't want to admit it, when i was in a relationship, i had a tendency to lose myself. i wanted so much for my partner to be happy that i could twist and bend in every way possible just so he's pleased, even if that meant giving up a part of myself.

but now, i'm rediscovering who i am. and it's great. i've had renewal of faith. i've time to really plan my future, to figure out what i really want to be. i've the chance to travel, put aside money, spend time with my siblings, with my parents, my godson, with people i love.

i know that i'll have that special someone in the near future. i know in my past entries i'm always questioning why he's taking such a long time. this time around, i want him to take his time. walk the path that he has to to find me. i know he will. but in the meantime,

i'm single and i'm fabulous!

email me! missymisbehavin08@yahoo.com